Weigh-in

I weighed in tonight.... at 112.2kg. That's about a kilo less than 3 weeks ago! ;)
Still really struggling though, and being pretty hard on myself.

A friend suggested to me today, that when I'm done for the day, tired, heading for the couch - to do ONE more thing. Even if I really don't think I can, just do one more thing before relaxing on my butt!
She suggested raking the lawn, sweeping the floor, vacuuming, etc. Something physical. Anything.

So tonight when I got home, I did. I repotted some plants, lifting bags of soil, bending, stretching, and watered the garden. I'm pooped!

I really thought 2012 would be the year I could "crack" this whole weight/health thing... But as Christmas grows nearer, and my mind wanders to thoughts of a "fresh start" in the New Year, I realise that I have not managed to make the positive changes in my life that I believed I would.

And so, I will make 2013 MY year! ...And I have December 2012 as a "head-start!"
There's eight months to go to my big day! Wedding bells!!! x

No-No-November!

November. Yup. Still hovering around the 112kg mark... Sigh.

Have eased off the meal replacement shakes AND the handfuls of vitamin supplements  per day due to tummy issues - which have now settled.

Still constantly tired and run down. I know this is common for overweight people - and for those with Fibromyalgia - and can be a side effect of having diabetes as well! (Plus new tests show my iron levels are still a bit down). Not sure exactly what to blame though - or if it really matters!?! It's due to all of the above I suppose.

Recently my partner and I had our initial consult with the IVF clinic to find out specific information and costs so we can work toward a start-date... Obviously people's chances of conceiving are better when their bodies are in peak condition... *pangs of guilt and despair!* And apparently the diabetes is a considerable factor too :(

Late next month I have a follow up appointment with an Endocrinologist who told me at my last appointment that if my health hasn't significantly improved, she will recommend I go off the tablets I currently take, and instead go to insulin injections! A scary thought! She claims that studies have shown this assists the pancreas and allows it some rest, rather than waiting for things to become dire so that the pancreas actually RELIES on the injections?! I still want to investigate this further though.

I'm behind on Christmas preparations, have missed friend's birthdays, and am planning a massive garage sale and de-clutter this coming weekend! I feel overwhelmed with work commitments (my 12-15 hours per week feel like 40 or more to me!) I am battling with anxiety... And know that I need to drastically change my lifestyle but still don't feel I know how to take control and GET RESULTS! The anxiety really impacts on me physically as well... From headaches to tingles and buzzing in my head.

Somebody please write something on here and support me...? (I'm just feeling really low right now). x