Every once in a while (like at a party last night for example) I see a photo someone else has taken - just a straight-on, regular photo - the way that people see me every day. No flattering angles or tricky lighting, just me, as others know me. In recent years, I have been genuinely shocked to see myself this way. (And shocked at the fact that I feel shocked - because I do after all possess a mirror at home! - But it's easy to focus on certain areas, and not really take in the whole "you" just standing there). Anyway, when I see photos of myself I cannot believe how big I have gotten. I would hate to look so bloated and unwell in my wedding photos...
Here's an example: a happy-snap taken at a friend's 80's themed birthday party last night. (Yes, I'm in costume!) I saw this and thought "oh, God". It's not meant to be a horrible portrayal of me - just a regular party snapshot. But it's just the way any such photo makes me feel... Big. Ashamed. Unhealthy. Unfit. Bloated. Unwell.
I'm sure it could be worse, but I certainly don't LOVE looking this way. And would you believe in this photo I'm wearing tummy control underwear - those thick, tight undies that tuck right up under your bra. Yep. Which reminds me - about 2 weeks ago a lady asked if I was pregnant! That's the second time in about 2 years that someone's asked. Groaaaan...
So, the
What am I going to DO to change the way I look and feel?
When am I going to get started and take changes seriously?
What the hell am I waiting for, and Why?!
Here's an interesting article I recently came across online:
http://advancedlifeskills.com/blog/6-keys-to-overcome-fear-and-doubt/
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