It's May! Reading through my previous posts I can see that I've not even TRIED to reach goals that I've set myself?!
10th May weight: 113.4
Also, our wedding is planned* for August 2013.... Giving me 15 months to get to a point where I can bare seeing photos of myself!
*The wedding date has kept moving annually, due to moving house, changing jobs, financial issues, etc. I'm quite determined to be married by 2013 - no ifs, buts, or maybes!!! Nothing is booked or locked in yet - but i'm making it my mission in 2012!
Also, IVF.... We want children. We apparently can't do it naturally - (due to a failed vasectomy reversal) so we need to pay for assistance via IVF. We're scheduling an initial appointment in June to find out what's involved, costs, and how my current state of health & weight will affect our chances of success. We don't have much money, but after finding out the facts, would potentially be hoping to get started by December 2012.
Saw a new GP recently - she seemed nice so will go back in coming weeks to schedule a full blood work up & review of medications etc. I tend to blame the FM for my constant tiredness - but much of it is actually likely related to the T2 Diabetes that I basically generally ignore - bar taking my tablets. Not good.
Still have yet to get into regular walking... We live in a nice area though so I'm going to try to make it a regular event :)
To think, my "healthy weight range" is 54-68 kg - I have a looooong way to go!!! But I don't even bother thinking about that at this stage. Just getting under 100kg would be such an achievement! From there, new goals to head toward 85kg, maintain, and refresh goals again from there...
Feeling overwhelmed.
But "onward and upward" as my fiancé sometimes says, lol.
Baby steps Baby steps sweetpea. Pick one thing and focus on that for the week. Make sure that the thing you are focusing on is in your face, so if you are going to focus on walking, stick post-its every where with WALK written on them, plan it in your diary and remember it doesn't matter how slow you go you are still lapping everyone on the couch.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard, but it is worth it, and you are worth it. Big hugs and love xox