About me.

I've always been slightly overweight, and can recall being teased in school about it - although when I look back at photos I don't think I appear much over average weight?! Anyway, I was always shy & very sensitive to criticism.
By age 18 I dropped most of the excess weight I was carrying, and proudly got to my record weight of 63kg. This is actually the healthy weight for my height, and I managed to wear a size 12 comfortably. Unfortunately I lost the weight in an unhealthy manner by virtually starving myself and exercising for hours each day before falling exhaustedly into bed (without dinner).
To cut a long story short, as the next couple of years progressed, I got hungry. So I ate, and ate "bad" food, and ate more, and ate in secret.
So here we are, 15 years and 50 extra kilos later... still eating!
Obviously there's more to the story than that, but for the purpose of this blog, and it merely being an introduction - we'll leave it at that.

So now I'm 33, engaged to a loving and supporting man, & am struggling with various health issues, which carrying excess weight does not help!!! (I'll go into more detail about these health issues & their impact later).
I feel that it's time to take responsibility for my life, health, and ultimately my happiness.
Currently weighing in at around 114kg (I'll check my weight in the morning, along with some other stats soon) - I would really like to reach 85kg in time for my wedding, in just under 11 months.
My fiancé & I would also like to fall pregnant - but it's so far been about 30 months without success.
There are so many reasons to lose weight and look after my health, yet there seem to be so many barriers to me achieving these goals. I'm hoping that writing my thoughts down and sharing them with you will somehow help to clarify things and get it happening. And hey, if I inspire someone else along the way then that's a bonus!

So please, sign up to follow me on my journey, and share your thoughts and comments with me along the way!

B.