So I've been thinking a bit lately. Thinking about my life. Thinking about how I feel about myself.
I originally started this blog to talk about food & exercise mainly - as a form of online accountability. But at the moment I don't feel as though food or exercise is causing my weight issue - or that focussing on those things will fix it. Obviously these things affect health and weight, but what I'm trying to say is that the problem is in my head. It's psychological. It's emotional. It's attached to all aspects of my life like intricately sticky spider webs, obscuring my view, preventing my movement, binding me, and filling me with fear.
Along with being overweight (or technically "obese"), I mentioned previously that I have other health issues. These are:
* Clinical Depression / Anxiety (medicated)
* Hypertension (medicated)
* Diabetes Mellitus Type 2 (medicated)
* Fibromyalgia
* Asthma (occasional use of inhaler)
So in more familiar terms, I have depression, experience a lot of anxiety, have high blood pressure, Type 2 diabetes (non-insulin dependant, so no injections), mild asthma, and fibromyalgia (similar to chronic fatigue syndrome in many ways) - visit http://sacfs.asn.au/download/fm_overview.pdf for more info.
So with all this fatigue, lethargy, huffing, puffing, & panicking - I'm supposed to be able to get myself on track to lose weight!!! Hmmm. Ultimately being lighter & fitter will absolutely help ALL of these conditions, but the conditions themselves make it increasingly difficult to carry out the necessary tasks to become fitter & lighter. Still, I do realise that achieving weight-loss goals IS possible. I just need to get my head around it.
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